scrupulous brat!

what a day...i don't really like what happend today...it's so awful! yikes!

whew! my mind tells me not to accept that scene...(yuck!) huhuhuhuhuhu...it cant be...it was not me who made it...it is my other half...she's too weak...

kabalo kamo ano gina yaw-yaw ko? nanghalok lang man ko sang tao ah...dipuga!

linte gid tana ya, indi tana to ako...sure gid ko sina...ahai...ginago tana ni ya...indio nagid ko mag liwat...promise gid na...yikes!


indi nagid to maliwat isumpa ko pagid na!

what i really felt right now...

it so dark and gloomy, so wet and i feel so sticky
my heart is trap with something that i can't identify
my body and mind are in not so good condition
i want to faint a moment and have a rest for the rest of my life.
funny isnt it?

1st,
it was my friends, i am with them for almost 4 years
but its like forever that i have to consider their feedbacks and reactions
they belong to the pieces that makes me human,
they are so important to me,
oh i love them so much.
but they also the one who makes me feel sad,
they created different stories that i cant figured out where it came from.
though they dont talk so loud
the vibrations and the silence reached my soul
and it made me sick.
i just cant tell a word because i dont know what to say.
but it is just some of them, and i wanna thank them
for giving me an opportunity to reach the truth.

2nd. other people

they made me sick in a way that they dont want me,
they hurt me in their most clever way...
and i hate them!

3rd. myself..

i love her, but i hate her.

God help me...

From the inside out

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

filth..

whew!

my views in life have changed...

aie ewan...


i hate bitches and witches!...there making me ill...

whew!...

somebody save me...i cant take all the pain na...