Friday, September 25, 2009

This one is for me




Living in the world of reality means you have to deal with real things,
with life
. In the past 18 years of my life there are lots of things to consider as the best thing that happened. I have so many accomplishments that everyone around me shared me with joy. Visions are plainly and superbly laid in front of me, goals are ready to be hit anytime I want, that’s because I have everything and I believe I deserve all those things. Later, I mean this past few months I’ve come to realize that the world is not for me but for those people who work out for it, that I am in a world of reality, in this past few months I have met someone whom I should consider part of my third door (I have known him for years but were not that closed), he’s so caring, sweet, nice, kind (in some ways) and wise. But the thing is he is also deviant (well everyone is deviant by there nature), picky and observant. He can easily get across with the idea; he can put his thoughts in words and can think as seven times if he wants to. But the thing is I like him the most and I can’t really understand why of all those people who want to be with my world, it’s him who unlocked the gate. I hate him for some reasons, but I love him for more than any reason. some of my friends don't like him, some don't even appreciate what he's doing, well i think that's because he's so hooked in his past and they don't want me to trap in that kind of relationship (i appreciate their concern sooo much..) that's why When he came into my life, I just can’t figure out why “him” of all those person and God forgive me, I think I deserve him and I think this one is for me.

Monday, August 17, 2009

scrupulous brat!

what a day...i don't really like what happend today...it's so awful! yikes!

whew! my mind tells me not to accept that scene...(yuck!) huhuhuhuhuhu...it cant be...it was not me who made it...it is my other half...she's too weak...

kabalo kamo ano gina yaw-yaw ko? nanghalok lang man ko sang tao ah...dipuga!

linte gid tana ya, indi tana to ako...sure gid ko sina...ahai...ginago tana ni ya...indio nagid ko mag liwat...promise gid na...yikes!


indi nagid to maliwat isumpa ko pagid na!

Monday, August 10, 2009

what i really felt right now...



it so dark and gloomy, so wet and i feel so sticky
my heart is trap with something that i can't identify
my body and mind are in not so good condition
i want to faint a moment and have a rest for the rest of my life.
funny isnt it?

1st,
it was my friends, i am with them for almost 4 years
but its like forever that i have to consider their feedbacks and reactions
they belong to the pieces that makes me human,
they are so important to me,
oh i love them so much.
but they also the one who makes me feel sad,
they created different stories that i cant figured out where it came from.
though they dont talk so loud
the vibrations and the silence reached my soul
and it made me sick.
i just cant tell a word because i dont know what to say.
but it is just some of them, and i wanna thank them
for giving me an opportunity to reach the truth.

2nd. other people

they made me sick in a way that they dont want me,
they hurt me in their most clever way...
and i hate them!

3rd. myself..

i love her, but i hate her.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

God help me...

From the inside out

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

filth..

whew!

my views in life have changed...

aie ewan...


i hate bitches and witches!...there making me ill...

whew!...

somebody save me...i cant take all the pain na...

Sunday, July 19, 2009

cant take it na...pero basin kaya pa...

sakit nagid akon buot ya...

though wala ga tulo akon luha, gina mean man nga wala ko ga hibi...

sakit nagid ang mga sugilanon nga mabatian ko...

ambot ah...

daw sila gid ga paandar sang akon kinabuhi...

sa balay...sa gawas amo gyapon..

waay sang maka intindi sa akon...

mabuang gid ko sini ba...

hai...

sige lang...

kaya paman...

indi lang anay ko mag istorya...

biskan kapoy na nga cge dala sini...

Sunday, July 12, 2009

i hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate you....


grrrrr...


bwisit ka...

gina into mo lang ko,,,...


shit ka...


bwisit...


whew!!!!!


i hate you...

i hate you...


i hate you...

gtrabeh ang mga pang into...


i hate yoiy...


really hate youe.......